• Motherhood

    It’s Been A While…

    You guys life is amazing. When we think we can’t stretch anymore God proves to us that we can! He gives us the strength to get through every situation. Now that situation may not be easy. We may shed a few tears, scream, yell, cry, and laugh but we will get through it.

    The last 8 months of my life have honestly been a blur. Motherhood is hard guys but I freaking love it. It has stretched me to limits I never knew I had. The things I have gone through have shaped me into the woman I am today and I am thankful.

    I’m up to something. It’s scary, exciting, and quite terrifying but I am ready for the challenge. Boldlylove is going to be changing. It is going to be shaped and molded into something freaking amazing but I’m not quite ready to share just yet. You will just have to wait patiently.

    Please Stay tuned for blogs and more info on what is to come. In the meantime please join me in praying over all of what God has in store for Boldlylove. Pray that I will continue to look to Him for guidance through this process as I can’t do it without him.

  • Motherhood

    Pregnancy and its Many Adventures

    Pregnancy is a journey for sure.

    A rollercoaster ride of emotions that you can never fully prepare for. Thank goodness the good Lord has blessed me with very easy pregnancies but it seems the outside forces don’t want me to get off that easy. I want you to know that I am not writing this for pity but for all of you to understand that my life that may always seem perfect is far from perfect. I deal with things daily but I just choose to look on the bright side which has not always been an easy task for me. Through these challenges and trials I have been able to learn and grow stronger. God has given me freedom and I rest in Him.

    woman during first pregnancy

    First Pregnancy

    My first pregnancy was easy peasy. I worked the entire time and felt great up until I went into labor. I believe God blessed me with this because at the time my whole world was caving in. My family was going through extreme brokenness. My marriage was quite rocky. I was in search of a new job at 7 months pregnant that would allow me to bring Annaleigh with me once she arrived. It all seemed impossible to handle but God showed up. He found me the perfect job immediately that would allow me to bring my sweet one with me and still be able to support my family. As for my family and marriage well that took a little longer but He certainly restored and healed as time went on. Today we have been married for 7yrs and I couldn’t be more proud of the obstacles we have faced and overcome.

    Second Pregnancy

    Baby Webb #2 pregnancy I thought surely nothing can go wrong. Everything went wrong last time so this time should be perfect… I was so wrong. I was sick for the first 12 weeks but that wasn’t what got me. Since my first birth was a beautiful 8lb 13oz baby girl I have been treated as if I had the plague by my doctors the entire time. I know the risks and am perfectly aware of gestational diabetes and all of that jazz. Again I had a wonderful pregnancy with Annaleigh no problems, a great labor and delivery but bc I had a big baby I feel as if I have been punished. I have eaten significantly better this pregnancy which has show in my weight gain. I have drank my water daily but every time I go in I get raked over the coals. Why you ask I don’t know. I have tried my hardest to do everything right but every appointment I leave feeling defeated and helpless. I have taken the glucose test twice and passed both times but they still hound me. And to top it off, I have been told from 20wks on that they will probably induce me early because my baby is big?!?! I know I have done it before and am perfectly capable of doing it with the right team to stand along side me and do this thing.

    pregnant planning nursery

    Planning is Baloney

    And this is coming from an extreme planner! You can plan your whole pregnancy out. You can get the nursery just perfect. You can have a perfect vision of what your labor and delivery will look like but life happens. I don’t say this to be doom and gloom. I say this coming from a fellow planner that its ok if it doesn’t go to plan! God will take you through those challenges and will bring you out of them restored and full of more knowledge about Him and His loving character. I was becoming so obsessed over my diet and overall health bc of these doctors. When I got that second glucose test (that I passed with flying colors) it was like Gods way of saying I’ve got this! You need to chill I’ve got it! Needless to say at 30wks pregnant I have switched to a totally different hospital and doctor group. As scary as that sounds I am confident I am now in the right place to bring baby Webb into this world. Follow your gut mamas because most likely that’s God pushing you.

     

  • Motherhood

    Breaking Free from Anxiety and Releasing Control

    family having fun in the rain anxiety free

    Becoming a Mom

    When I became a mom I honestly expected to be an anxious parent.¬†From as far as I can remember I have struggled with anxiety and I’m not talking anxious about a certain situation but crippling anxiety. Anxiety you don’t know where it came from but it’s definitely there and roaring its ugly head. As you can imagine that mixed with the early days of motherhood was tough but that is where God and I met face to face to tackle this demon so that I could break free and be who He intended me to be as a mother.

    The Hard Choice

    Despite the many years I have worked with children the baby stage didn’t come easy for me. The first few months I was obsessed with making sure I was doing everything “right”. I would question everything I did. I finally came to a point where I had to make a choice. I had a choice to let this anxiety rule over me or to break free. This was no easy task but I believed that with God all things are possible.

    anxiety free playing in a puddle with my daughter

    Starting the Day Afresh

    The first step I took in releasing my anxiety and control (I thought I had on everything) was starting yoga. I would get up in the morning before Annaleigh, light a candle, crack open my Bible on my mat in the floor and start to read. After my morning devotion I would start my yoga flows. Some mornings I would get maybe one flow in but some mornings many if time allowed. Now if yoga is not your thing no worries but I encourage you to get up before your home gets up and do what lights your soul on fire. Drink your cup of coffee in the stillness of your home, read a book, prepare your home for the day, whatever it is that will help jump start your day do it. You won’t regret it.

    Getting to the Root

    Starting my day afresh was great but something was still disarray even in the last few weeks. I had to get to the root of my anxiety. I quickly realized a lot of that resided in my control of situations with Annaleigh. Now the thought of being able to control a baby better yet a toddler is quite absurd. I mean we can’t even control our own selves as adults sometimes and I’m expecting a toddler to just get it all. Again I was so obsessed with doing it right, having control of naps, dinner time, behavior issues, you name it. I was missing out on a lot of special time with my daughter because of worries and fear. I had to give it to God and let go!

    Letting Go

    Letting go isn’t easy but I feel it is the key to many wonderful fun filled days with your little ones. The baby/toddler doesn’t nap its ok! Go outside, go for a walk, paint, craft, take a bath with bubbles, snuggle in bed and watch a movie, go splash in puddles if it rains, let it all go! When I release control and just go with the flow of the day we end on such a good note. The whole house is at ease and full of peace…plus the satisfaction on a toddlers face that got to play in the rain…priceless.

    little girl playing in the rain

    You’ve Got This

    I encourage you all to remember you are dong an amazing job. The devil wanted me and wants you to feel you are doing it all wrong but you aren’t mama. He wants to infiltrate our thoughts and take control of our motherhood but we can’t allow that. We are all learning together. As we fill our hearts and minds with patience and grace we can boldly love and conquer any day that is set before us.

     

     

  • Motherhood

    Seeing the Beauty in All Things

    Little girl in the beauty of outside playing with a waterhose

    Parenting is one of the most beautiful experiences you will have.

    As a parent we get to watch our little ones take in all of the beauty of this world and be a part of that journey with them. Being outside in nature is one of my favorite things to do with Annaleigh. There is just something about it, watching a kid be able to run off energy, explore, and be free.

    Finding Beauty

    One day in particular Annaleigh was off exploring and found a rock. As she looked at it with awe and wonder she exclaimed “Oh mommy it’s beautiful!” Now this rock in my mind was no beauty. It was bumpy, rough and covered in red mud but in her eyes it should be in an exhibit in a museum. Now of course I responded with “Wow that’s amazing!” but it got me thinking…

    Rock full of beauty that daughter found

    In life we view ourselves as I viewed this rock. We see a rock that could definitely use some reshaping, buffing around the edges and of course maybe some glitter to jazz us up. A rock that dare I say just isn’t enough. The way God sees us is entirely different.

    God’s View of Beauty

    God looks at us in awe and wonder. He sees a creation that He deeply loves. A creation He made in His own image. He doesn’t care that we are covered in dirt or a little bumpy. He loves us exactly the way we are flaws and all! God is proud to have made you. He sees the beauty in you and that little muddy rock just like Annaleigh did. He sees the beauty in everything and so should we.

    Don’t Miss Out!

    We get so wrapped up with other things sometimes that we miss out on these little gems that our own children teach us. Thanking God for always learning the art of boldly loving from my sweet little one.

    Little girl excited about the beauty of playing in a pool outside