I know I know all of you have been just sitting on the edge of your seats thinking of me and what I’m up to right?!
In my previous blog I shared how the last 9 months have been a whirlwind. My sweet Jackson was born August 16th of last year. Two months into being a mother of two I was diagnosed with postpartum anxiety and depression. My life was flipped upset down as I tried to navigate taking care of two little ones and healing myself from birth physically and mentally. My story and my journey with ppd/a is the fuel for my next journey and it’s just the start of something truly amazing.
One day when everything was going right I found myself sitting on my bathroom floor while Jackson slept and Annaleigh stood beside me. I sobbed and sobbed as her 2 1/2 year old self stood there and told me “Mama its ok.” I got the courage to call my husband and he immediately called everyone that was close to come help me. My sweet friend kk came and stayed with me the rest of the day. I just couldn’t seem to get my emotions under control and that comes with the hormonal changes after birth. After that I decided what I was experiencing and feeling was not normal. I set up an appointment with my doctor and got put on antidepressants.
When you have a baby it is such a beautiful thing! Of course its wild those first few days in the hospital but at least you have help just outside the door. On day 2 or 3 they wheel you out to your car in your granny panties and say adios! In a way you are just dropped off in this land we call motherhood and it can be scary and at times lonely. We all need people to lean on and go to during that time. This is where I want to come in.
My dream is to start a non-profit aimed to help the postpartum woman in several different capacities. I have so many ideas swirling in my brain but this is where it all starts.
This is a Postpartum basket to help assist in healing those first few weeks. It comes with Epsom salts, water bottle, flushable wipes, dry shampoo, witch hazel pads, nipple butter, perineal spray, pads, and breast pads. This will be the foot in the door to helping many women and be able to minister to them in the process. It will be filled with all kinds of information on healing after birth (natural and C-section) breastfeeding, lists of symptoms and signs of ppd/a and much more.
My mission is to help the postpartum woman feel seen and heard. It’s one of the most beautiful but challenging times. Each basket costs about $40 for me to put together. I plan to post ways to donate soon but I couldn’t wait to share any longer as I already have my first basket going to a pregnant mama that showed up on my doorstep!! Yes I said it my doorstep! God is amazing and more on that story later but for now I love you all and thanks for reading.